Hush yo Mouth
Posted by MayaInspire at Wednesday, April 09. 2008 and is filed under uncategorized 
Why is it nothing good ever follows "can I ask you a question?" Maybe it's me but if you need to preface anything with that, chances are, you should not be asking. I get this question before a question ten times the amount you think I do. I cringe and just get that feeling you feel when you want to be done with the conversation. Is that harsh? Am I just a mean bitch who should understand a person's curiosity? Would it be preferable to smile, brew some coffee, and tell them everything they have ever wanted to know about me? It's just a little harmless fun, right?
I have family and close associates who will sit you down and reveal everything from first kisses to secret recipes. Their lives are open books that are read aloud to any and all who pass. I call it "internal exhibitionism" and I don't hate on it but I have tried to understand it more in my quest to be more open. What is gained by bearing all? Is it narcissistic or is that they just don't mind revealing their most intimate thoughts and actions? I've come up with the idea that maybe they use this as a type of coping mechanism. An unburdening of life's happenings, both good and bad. Maybe they are hoping for some assistance in untangling the meaning behind their trials and tribulations.
If I am correct, what about me? Am I so strong as to not need any consult? Is it strength or arrogance? I am who I am and I think that you trust that I am that who has a story. A story that is maybe painful. A story that gets dirt thrown on it too damned often. A story that fights to break free everytime I sit down at this computer screen. Might you help me untangle it all? I don't know but one thing is for certain: I'll never know unless I try. I've never met you before but my bets are that you are patient. Patiently brewing cup after cup for this "internal recluse" to sit back, exhale, and just take a little sip.
Love the picture. You are one beautiful lady.
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Thanks Anon. I try!
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The road you have chosen was bound to lead to this conflict within you. I have quietly urged you to open your life a bit more . . . and I think you will. It's not what you don't have that I see but what you do have . . . . your wings.
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Awwww. Thank you, Chuck!
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If you're sipping I'm brewing! I love your writings and I'll be here reading everything you publish so I don't think there is a need for you to rush anything that you feel. I think it will come to you naturally and if someone tries to push too much just let them know. I'll be here reading and waiting.
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I was browsing through the internet recently about motivation and I somehow ran into your website so I opened in and read your story I was very impressed and that really just gave me the motivation that I needed I am currently a student at ICC in Peoria.I've been going to school and trying to work and be a mother to my son and somedays I really don't feel motivated to do anything but I no I have to do it not only for me but my son. But I love your site and your stories and your motivation.
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Annette-
I love it when I recieve comments like these. They are so special and I am glad you could find something extra within from the site. Your words give me motivation to continue. That's beautiful.
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