Getting What I Want
Posted by MayaInspire at Thursday, April 17. 2008 and is filed under uncategorized 
I had a frustrating day today and who better to commiserate with than you? I had a doctor's appointment almost a year ago and was owed a refund just recently. After being promised a check in the mail, I begin looking for this week after week. I finally call them up and tell them I would like to come by and pick up my money. The nurse then tells me that I will have to wait for someone to call me back and let me know when my check is ready. Now this might be satisfactory for some, but it was not satisfactory for me. After a few tense words, I went down there anyway.
I get there and was told to wait as "Barb" was in a meeting. I wait at the counter contemplating what threats would be appropriate for the occasion when I get summoned. A lady opens a back door and calls me into there like I'm a patient there to be seen. I figured they could see in my eyes that I was preparing to go all out in there. While in the back, everything was resolved and my check was cut. This whole event, exhilarating as it was, reminded me of something that I learned through much trial and error. It has opened my life up and made things simpler for me. I realized that wherever and however, I must get what it is that I want.
Before you go rolling your eyes to another blog let me say that this is not the musings of a spoiled individual. As a child, I was probably one of the angrier pig tailed little girls you could ever come across. I suppose a psychologist might attribute it all to being frustrated with my life’s circumstances. I moved with a scowl on my face and a chip on my shoulder. I routinely missed out on people who came up to me with good intentions and encouraging words. I could not communicate any of my desires effectively enough to see anything to completion. I was constantly wound up until I realized that all of my behavior was holding me back from the goal. I was the impediment towards my own greater good.
This is an important concept that when used right, makes all situations easier. Before, I had a hard time discerning what it was that I wanted. I went into situations and dealt with people expecting certain outcomes. I was disappointed a lot because without a clearly defined goal anything was bound to happen. "What I want" has been many things over time and does not always relate back to me. There are times when I want my money and there are other times where I want the happiness and satisfaction of another. Whatever it happens to be in my life, I always try to clearly define it so that I may go after it.
It is fun to go all out. Let off a little steam on a deserving chicken that is holding your money hostage. It took me some time to grasp that getting what I want rarely involves force or harsh words. I have calmed myself too many times to recount in the interest of my life running smoothly. I have contained many desires, held back when I wanted to just go, and said yes when I really wanted to say no. I have bit my tongue and waited hours, months, and years for the right thing. I now have a hold on what it means to measure my actions well enough so that they may coincide with my outcomes. I have never held myself out to be a perfect person, but, more often than not, I really do get what I want.
I get there and was told to wait as "Barb" was in a meeting. I wait at the counter contemplating what threats would be appropriate for the occasion when I get summoned. A lady opens a back door and calls me into there like I'm a patient there to be seen. I figured they could see in my eyes that I was preparing to go all out in there. While in the back, everything was resolved and my check was cut. This whole event, exhilarating as it was, reminded me of something that I learned through much trial and error. It has opened my life up and made things simpler for me. I realized that wherever and however, I must get what it is that I want.
Before you go rolling your eyes to another blog let me say that this is not the musings of a spoiled individual. As a child, I was probably one of the angrier pig tailed little girls you could ever come across. I suppose a psychologist might attribute it all to being frustrated with my life’s circumstances. I moved with a scowl on my face and a chip on my shoulder. I routinely missed out on people who came up to me with good intentions and encouraging words. I could not communicate any of my desires effectively enough to see anything to completion. I was constantly wound up until I realized that all of my behavior was holding me back from the goal. I was the impediment towards my own greater good.
This is an important concept that when used right, makes all situations easier. Before, I had a hard time discerning what it was that I wanted. I went into situations and dealt with people expecting certain outcomes. I was disappointed a lot because without a clearly defined goal anything was bound to happen. "What I want" has been many things over time and does not always relate back to me. There are times when I want my money and there are other times where I want the happiness and satisfaction of another. Whatever it happens to be in my life, I always try to clearly define it so that I may go after it.
It is fun to go all out. Let off a little steam on a deserving chicken that is holding your money hostage. It took me some time to grasp that getting what I want rarely involves force or harsh words. I have calmed myself too many times to recount in the interest of my life running smoothly. I have contained many desires, held back when I wanted to just go, and said yes when I really wanted to say no. I have bit my tongue and waited hours, months, and years for the right thing. I now have a hold on what it means to measure my actions well enough so that they may coincide with my outcomes. I have never held myself out to be a perfect person, but, more often than not, I really do get what I want.
I love it. I think we often go about situations wrong because we don't know any better but when you break it down like this it makes much sense. I love it.
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I really enjoy your insight. Being an older person and truly understanding your point of view I just hope everyone can grab on to this lesson sooner rather than later.
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Correct me if I'm wrong but I think you just admitted to developing patience, didn't you?! Maybe the Old Hag doesn't look quite so old . . . . or so formidable. Sometimes, dogged perseverance and patience are the only ways to achieve one's goals.
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I've got an ounce of patience in this body... from time to time!
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