The Makings of Me
Posted by MayaInspire at Thursday, May 01. 2008 and is filed under uncategorized 
From top to bottom, I am content with myself. I love the woman that I am and feel equally gracious for the journey that has assisted my arrival. I routinely scrutinize the pieces of my whole in an attempt to locate the essence of me. Who am I? I can rattle off a lengthy list of what my preferences are; what I like to eat and how I like to feel. How did I get this way and would my core self be dramatically different under different circumstances?
It was in college when I was first exposed to the nature versus nurture argument. At the time, it was just something to study so I could pass but I have revisited this notion many times since. I felt certain that we are beings who are culminations of the world around us and nothing more. If I erased my present upbringing and replaced it with torturous conditions, I most certainly would be writing very differently if at all. Children who have been through severe abuse, have a different worldview than those children coming of age inBeverly Hills
There is nothing like a firsthand experience. I am fortunate enough to be the mother of a very kind soul. I sit at the helm of his ship and marvel at who he truly is. The terms that can be used to describe him are as colorful as his personality. His charm is disarming and this soliloquy is not simply rooted in a mother's love. He is an extraordinary human being that lacks the life experience I had previously thought we all needed to be at a certain point. Nature has emerged in my psyche like only nature can and I am humbled. Contrary to popular belief, MayaInspire knows how to reverse course.
All of this accelerating and reversing has deposited me at the feet of that age old question. I will answer an emphatic ‘NO’ before I even reveal the query. If I had to do my life over again, it would go exactly the same and you can put that on everything you own. If you have read long enough, you know that MayaInspire moves with a swagger. Unending valleys have crafted a ballsy and uncompromising spirit.
Have I missed out on some things? More than a few. My first breath set the wheels on a windy and unforgiving road. I was born a softy but I have been forced to armor myself at the simplest of moments. I have been hardened from pigtails. I mentally wrangled with issues my young mind was not biologically prepared to deal with. My life trumps spontaneity. I have more attention on me in one day than I could ever need in a lifetime. My rose tinted glasses were demolished before I could even discern the view. I have missed out on a few things.
It is not all bad; very few things are. Uncovering perfection in my existence is without effort. It was there before me and even now, it comes, and comes again. My childhood was comfortable and I have always been surrounded by good people and good things. I have overcome situations that were challenging with relative ease. With each successive step I have executed, I cannot help but feel the completeness of it all. This is what is meant for me and the more in line I am with that, the better off I will be.
I am in hopes now that if our paths ever cross, you will not need to ask, wonder about, or hint around that age old question. Through it all, I have found a tremendous love of self. How can I ever long for more? My worldview is different and I would not know how to function in someone else's. I am grateful for everything that has ever taken place in my life. Nature has joined forces with nurture to create the most pleasant of symphonies.
It was in college when I was first exposed to the nature versus nurture argument. At the time, it was just something to study so I could pass but I have revisited this notion many times since. I felt certain that we are beings who are culminations of the world around us and nothing more. If I erased my present upbringing and replaced it with torturous conditions, I most certainly would be writing very differently if at all. Children who have been through severe abuse, have a different worldview than those children coming of age in
There is nothing like a firsthand experience. I am fortunate enough to be the mother of a very kind soul. I sit at the helm of his ship and marvel at who he truly is. The terms that can be used to describe him are as colorful as his personality. His charm is disarming and this soliloquy is not simply rooted in a mother's love. He is an extraordinary human being that lacks the life experience I had previously thought we all needed to be at a certain point. Nature has emerged in my psyche like only nature can and I am humbled. Contrary to popular belief, MayaInspire knows how to reverse course.
All of this accelerating and reversing has deposited me at the feet of that age old question. I will answer an emphatic ‘NO’ before I even reveal the query. If I had to do my life over again, it would go exactly the same and you can put that on everything you own. If you have read long enough, you know that MayaInspire moves with a swagger. Unending valleys have crafted a ballsy and uncompromising spirit.
Have I missed out on some things? More than a few. My first breath set the wheels on a windy and unforgiving road. I was born a softy but I have been forced to armor myself at the simplest of moments. I have been hardened from pigtails. I mentally wrangled with issues my young mind was not biologically prepared to deal with. My life trumps spontaneity. I have more attention on me in one day than I could ever need in a lifetime. My rose tinted glasses were demolished before I could even discern the view. I have missed out on a few things.
It is not all bad; very few things are. Uncovering perfection in my existence is without effort. It was there before me and even now, it comes, and comes again. My childhood was comfortable and I have always been surrounded by good people and good things. I have overcome situations that were challenging with relative ease. With each successive step I have executed, I cannot help but feel the completeness of it all. This is what is meant for me and the more in line I am with that, the better off I will be.
I am in hopes now that if our paths ever cross, you will not need to ask, wonder about, or hint around that age old question. Through it all, I have found a tremendous love of self. How can I ever long for more? My worldview is different and I would not know how to function in someone else's. I am grateful for everything that has ever taken place in my life. Nature has joined forces with nurture to create the most pleasant of symphonies.
Beautifully said.
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What a beautiful ode to your existence in all it's glory!!!!!
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Maya, that was the best piece you have written. There is a peace and a quiet satisfaction (yes, I said quiet) I have not read before in this writing. Keep up the very good work . . . .
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This is the most incredible entry you've written. I read it five times already!
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MayaInspire. These are powerful words you write. I hope that others have found the inspiration in these words that I feel right now.
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