Way More Than Half
Posted by MayaInspire at Thursday, May 15. 2008 and is filed under uncategorized 
I am having a rough go of it today. Because I named this site MayaInspire, must I always inspire? Should I always wear the mask and deliver up only good and positive messages? That would make you feel better about reading wouldn't it? Is it always about you or can I also come here to share and relate through the good and the bad. Is it me or is there a tendency towards roboticism in everyday life? Just turn on the radio and listen to your favorite DJ. Do they ever have bad days? Do news casters ever worry about anything at all? From the looks of things I would posit no. I understand that we want to concern ourselves with positivity and have a bright outlook but can we really pull it off every single day?
I increasingly put forth more effort to be in control of my thoughts and emotions. Can I max out without ever really achieving a state of absolute positivity? Am I striving for something that cannot be done? I often feel that I am. Maybe the battle is won with 87% positivity or maybe I'm just punking out. It is not on my good days that I need the most effort. It is on days like today where I must give all that I have to stay happy and hopeful. I am steadily monitoring my thoughts so that they stay on the productive side and resist being swallowed by uncertainty. I am struggling but I suppose it is good that I know when I need to bear down.
I like being a positive person but more than that, I want to be real. A real person's emotions run the gamut. I hate it when a person has 360 days where they are perfect but they are judged based on the 5 days that were less than stellar. The pendulum swings both ways and that should be acknowledged and accepted. Resist roboticism. 87% is way more than half...
It is natural to feel different as you go through different things in your life. I think other readers understand that. If you are having a bad day you should let it out and nobody is going to get turned off by that. You inspire me even on your bad days.
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As always, thought provoking Mayainspire! I am encouraged and inspired by your insight.
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